anonymous March 23rd, 2008 06:05AM  
I was watching some episodes of LPTV and in one of them there was an explaination about this song. As far as I know, Mike denied the fact that the song was written about Chester but Chester knew it was. They perfomed it live a little while ago (you'll find it on YouTube), which surprised me a bit because I had previously known that the song was difficult for Chester to perform. So I am going to stick with the theory that the song was written about Chester's drug addiction (someone said that he wasn't addicted to coke. You are wrong. He was addicted to coke and meth). That is just my opinion, other people might think of it differently. I think that the song could have an individual meaning to everyone, so everyone is entitled to their own opinion.

anonymous April 7th, 2008 08:28PM  
This song is one of their greatest ever and personally I think it's saying many different things all with the same general idea however that someone is addicted to something whether it be drugs, love, etc... And they know it's wrong so they're breaking the habit of always doing the same thing over and over again that is bringing them down to their breaking point. Personally for me, it;s about love but that's just me it could be anything because LP's lyrics are general and could be related with just about anything that pops into the audience's mind

anonymous May 27th, 2008 02:20PM  
I have 12 years and I will tell you what I think. It's about having a specific reason. Usually has to do whit drugs, but starting from the beginning.

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again

All he think of is of that thing that is killing him inside He tries to put himself together but mean while he has to get out of his room because there is the problem but everybody thinks hi is safer in the room.

I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

He doesn't what to be a person with those thoughts but his life is already written but he think everyone is wrong but once he look inside himself he realize he is the one confused and wrong.

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

Of all the problems he had he thinks there is no reason to live he dosent know why he is still screaming when he is
get hurt.He dosent know why he push peaople to things but in the anger in his own heart and of himself he ens up hurting other people.He dosent know how he got this way but he has an idea and he knoes is not alright and so of hating himself he is gonna stop that habbit.

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

He tries to get a cure so he locks the door to try and think strate he is hurt than anytime before but he had no option but to take the pain.

I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

He will write to everyone everywhere how he felt he knows he has the fault if he dosent fight anymore tru life he will end like he is(in misary thinking he has no purpose)

So he is breaking that habbit tonight!

anonymous June 5th, 2008 11:52PM  
Most of you guys have very good points with your interpretations. To be honest even Linkin park couldn't tell you what the song means because even Mike shinoda said in an interview that him or any other member of Linkin Park shouldnt tell you what the song means.

Just because they wrote it doesn't give them any more right to say what it means then we do. They don't say what they think it means because then everyone will automatically think that LP's opinion is what it really means. For me personally I think this song along with a lot of other Linkin Park songs has more than one way of showing itself. It could easily be about a person who feels like they can't do anything more and they want to end their life, it could be about a person becoming suicidal because of their drug addiction. It could also be about a person who maybe is very violent (for whatever personal reasons).

It can really be about anything any listener thinks it is. Most listeners can relate to this song in some way no matter what so nobody has the right to say that "this is what the song REALLY means" because even Linkin park couldnt tell us the true meaning because they in a way don't know it, even if they did write it. Because they want everyone to have their own personal opinion and interpretation of it.

My personal opinion on what this song means is a number of things at the same time. I think it's about more than one person who wants to "break the habit" of the dangerous or bad behaviour they are doing, it seems to be either about the person committing suicide over what they are doing or to simply try there hardest to stop what they're doing (drug addiction fighting or even a dangerous way of acting like partying a lot, alcohol abuse or whatever) Anyways sorry to have this be such a long paragraph, but that was my personal opinion on the whole matter of this, hope you enjoy!:)

anonymous June 17th, 2008 09:47PM  
I think it's about a relationship with a girl and drugs.

anonymous July 3rd, 2008 03:54AM  
It's about terrible harmful addictions overall an how so many people are trying to break their habit but they need help

AvengingSpirit12 July 4th, 2008 01:36AM  
Though this song was written for a specific situation, I believe that this song can be interpreted as breaking any negative habit. Drug use, alcohol abuse, and suicide attempts are all possible subjects this song can be interpreted to be about.

It can be about any negative habit that sort of changes you in a negative way.

anonymous July 19th, 2008 03:53PM  
"I have no options left AGAIN" seems to suggest that it's something he's done before, rather than a permanent thing like suicide. "paint it on the walls" could very well be suggesting painting his blood on the walls, but you can do that after self harm as well as blowing your brains out. I tend to interpret this song as about self harm (at least for myself), but I know that it can be interpreted in whatever way. Self harm and drug addiction are both things that the song could easily be talking, as well as suicide, each to his own, really.

anonymous August 19th, 2008 11:27AM  
Chester wasn't addicted to coke, he was addicted to crystal meth. This song was about a friend going through a drug problem as well.

24601 February 10th, 2009 09:38AM  
Being a recovering addict and counselor I think I have a few chips to put on the table :
Aside from the historical facts, IMHO it IS about addiction or at least an addict will be able to relate intimately to the lyrics so these are my takes on the passages (begging pardons as English isn't my primary language) :

"MEMORIES CONSUME LIKE OPENING A WOUND"
It's sometimes very painful for an addict to recall memories regarding the addiction such as situations which lead to addiction, the traumas experienced during active use, and, of course, the horribly painful withdrawals.
Being in active addiction is also like swimming in a stormy turbulent sea; there are periods of calm under water where at least you can't hear the winds and thunder and periods when the addict resurface to reality and find that all is actually lost.
Some addicts even experience some memory loss regarding the active using period.

"I'M PICKING ME APART AGAIN"
Addiction literally disintegrates a person. All which make ourselves human are gradually being picked off by the substance such as identity, material possessions, family, friends, talents, etc.

"YOU ALL ASSUME I'M SAFE HERE IN MY ROOM UNLESS I TRY TO START AGAIN"
The closest people of the addict (family and close friends) usually keep the addict "safe" inside what they expect to be a "safe and sterile" environment, most predominantly a distant place, a house, or a room. They expect the addict to be safe from more harm unless he/she uses the substance again. Well, actually, IMHO the problem is not the substance but the addict him/herself.

"I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WORTH FIGHTING FOR OR WHY I HAVE TO SCREAM"
"I DON'T KNOW WHY I INSTIGATE AND SAY WHAT I DON'T MEAN"
An addict almost always leads a turbulent and violent (way of) life physically and psychologically.
It is true that an addict almost always FEEL that he/she is in a constant battle and wants to scream because of all the pent-up frustration although he/she won't always know why the do that (the extreme cases would be self-mutilation and suicide). The addict sometimes involved in a destructive situation because of his/her actions but afterward simply doesn't know why he/she did those things.

"I DON'T KNOW HOW I GOT THIS WAY, I KNOW IT'S NOT ALRIGHT"
Addiction takes a stealth approach to "trap" the "victim". The first uses ALWAYS seem alright and everything seems fine but when the withdrawals kick-in, the addiction is already taken over the addict's life in such a complete way that the addict, in one way or another, accept the substance as a permanent fixture in his/her life. At this point, the addict usually feels something's definitely went
wrong but doesn't know how (or doesn't want to) to escape from the vicious cycle of addiction.

"SO I'M BREAKING THE HABIT...TONIGHT"
This is the irony of the story. EVERY addict wants to quit the addiction but very seldom able to quit on their own. The most usual time they pick to quit is not "now" but "tomorrow", "next week", "next Christmas", etc...including "tonight". But when the time comes, they won't quit anyway.

"CLUTCHING MY CURE, I TIGHTLY LOCK THE DOOR"
What does an addict do when he/she's got the substance of choice? Literally, clutching it, find a secure place, usually a closed space with a door and lock it.

"I TRY TO CATCH MY BREATH AGAIN"
The process of acquiring the substance sometimes (or usually) filled with terror; fear of the law, fear of the withdrawal symptoms, fear of friends/family, fear of being cheated, fear of somebody would steal the stuff, excitement from the process knowing that it's wrong, excitement from the anticipation of bliss that would come from the consummation of the stuff, etc.

"I HURT MUCH MORE THAN ANYTIME BEFORE, I HAVE NO OPTIONS LEFT AGAIN"
Everybody knows, including the addict, that the habit (addiction) is wrong morally, socially, religiously, physically, psychologically, by law. Humans have an inherent instinct of what is wrong or right. An addict KNOWS he/she's hurting him/herself more and more but, simply, CAN NOT stop and is UNABLE to find the solution to quit (even though it's in front of the addict's nose). It's actually tearing the addict apart.

"I DON"T WANT TO BE THE ONE THE BATTLES ALWAYS CHOOSE"
As said before, the addict feels caught in a battle as the prime victim.

"'CAUSE INSIDE I REALIZE THAT I'M THE ONE CONFUSED"
Again, when reality kicks-in (usually intermittently between waves of "highs"), the addict knows that it's all because of him/her or at least because of his/her destructive habits but, again, can't stop using.

"I'LL PAINT IT ON THE WALLS 'CAUSE I'M THE ONE AT FAULT"
"I'LL NEVER FIGHT AGAIN AND THIS IS HOW IT ENDS"
"BUT NOW I HAVE SOME CLARITY TO SHOW YOU WHAT I MEAN"
"I DON'T KNOW HOW I GOT THIS WAY, I'LL NEVER BE ALRIGHT"
It's either because English isn't my primary language or I simply don't get it; I don't really know the expression "paint it on the walls", sorry.
My take on the passage is that when an addict reach a certain point and "hit the bottom", the resolution to stop using comes up really strong again. The solution would be to just stop using, reach out to someone for help or...suicide (which stops everything).
But in the end, quitting addiction or not, an addict (including recovering addicts) understands the damages of addiction and some knows that, somehow, "it'll never be 100% alright again " as it was before the active addiction periods. The addiction will haunt the addict for the rest of his/her life.

Thank you and sorry for the lengthy explanation.

clairep July 6th, 2009 07:49AM  
I think the song yes my view on it not anyones else's is about suicide, and not finishing an addiction, cause an alcoholic is always an alcoholic, even if they don't touch drink anymore, there still an alcoholic, and the line where it says and this is where it ends, to me symbolizes it's all over, as in life, but that's what I take from the song doesn't mean I'm right or I'm wrong.........

anonymous August 5th, 2009 11:39PM  
The Song cannot be about suicide. Simply because of this one verse: "I try to catch my breath again." If he is going to kill himself, how can that work? The song is about any addiction that is hurting someone deep inside. Something that is messing them up. They can't drop it. And it is their way to stop their pain. The one in the song, has gotten too far into it and knows he has to stop the habit before it destroys him. Listen to the song and match my ideas with the lyrics. Every lyric will validate with my theory. I'm picking me a part again -- He is slowly destroying himself through his addiction. Unless I try to start again -- Means it cannot be a suicidal attempt because he wants starting again. I'm breaking the habit tonight -- Another reason it can't be suicidal. Clutching my Cure -- Leads to it being a relation as drugs, cutting, or any other way to forget something or supposedly.. He thinks it will help him I don't know how I got this way, I know it's not alright -- He doesn't understand why he does these things to make him "feel better" I try to catch my breath again -- Once again relating to that cure. The rest of the song's verses, relate to the same thing. It all ties together. -- Thanks for reading

archduke February 19th, 2010 01:39AM  
15 years of marriage. Broke up about a year ago - my initiative. I've known this song for years. Today, all of a sudden, riding in a cab on the way to the office, listening to my mp3, I have thought that this song might be about drugs, suicide, domestic violence, etc. But for me now - it's 100 percent accurate reflection of the way I felt before I decided to come clean and speak to my ex.

archduke February 19th, 2010 01:39AM  
15 years of marriage. Broke up about a year ago - my initiative. I've known this song for years. Today, all of a sudden, riding in a cab on the way to the office, listening to my mp3, I have thought that this song might be about drugs, suicide, domestic violence, etc. But for me now - it's 100 percent accurate reflection of the way I felt before I decided to come clean and speak to my ex.

archduke February 19th, 2010 01:39AM  
15 years of marriage. Broke up about a year ago - my initiative. I've known this song for years. Today, all of a sudden, riding in a cab on the way to the office, listening to my mp3, I have thought that this song might be about drugs, suicide, domestic violence, etc. But for me now - it's 100 percent accurate reflection of the way I felt before I decided to come clean and speak to my ex.

starrynights20 February 21st, 2010 08:58PM  
The song is about suicide, and becomes increasingly more melancholy word wise the further it progresses. Also the music becomes more climactic the same way it would in a movie and is a steady crescendo to the end because of his final decision. At first he's picking himself apart and doesn't know whether or not to go through with it but he knows its not alright. (He probably battles with the idea of suicide and whether or not its the right choice.) Then after he thinks about it he realizes he'll never be alright. (Accepting the idea of suicide and the fact that he LITERALLY will never feel better.) Then he "locks the door" and "clutches his cure" (probably a gun) because he knows it will never be alright; He will never change. So he's going to "paint it on the walls because he's the one at fault" (probably by shooting himself in the head) and "this is how it ends" and "he's breaking the habit tonight".(suicide) Basically its of a desperate plea for help because he's so alone and he doesn't feel like anyone can help him so instead of suffering anymore or hurting anyone else with the his careless actions and words, he's going to kill himself. Symbolically, this song could apply to drugs, domestic violence, or self harm (cutting) because all are forms of "suicide" and cause death to the persons that participate in them either physically, mentally and/or literally. But the literal meaning of the song is suicide. The song is a catch all for the negative emotions and inner battles that humans are faced with other the years and whether or not they can make it through those dark times in their lives.

anonymous March 19th, 2010 09:27PM  
Ouch. Yes, I think suicide. It makes sense. And linkin park songs always seem to have a deathly ending.