What does My December mean?

Linkin Park: My December Meaning

Album cover for My December album cover

My December Lyrics

This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
This is my December
This is my snow covered home
This is my December
This is me alone

And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there...

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    #1 top rated interpretation:
    anonymous
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    Aug 4th 2008 !⃝

    In my opinion it’s a mix of everything that has been already said. I see it this way: a person, probably LP member (or just a person artificially created for the purpose of this song, based on band member’s experience/reflections) sits all alone in his huge, beautiful house at winter time. Or actually, the house used to be big and beautiful, when he lived there with someone he loved (still does!). Now it remained only big... and overwhelming. It’s silent and cold what increases the feeling of being unwanted and lost. It’s also probably in the middle of nowhere, in the small country, let’s say. The person reflects how great it was in the past to spend December (not only, for sure! xD) with ones he loved (loves!). He used to like December (Christmas – fire at the fireplace, children unwrapping presents, a smell of gingerbread...) and with his family he felt accomplished at that time. Now, after the people he loved (loves!) left (not died, in my humble opinion, left him because of his behavior – relation to being blinded by fame? Or maybe jealousy?), he tries to fool himself that everything is fine, he has everything he needs, but subconsciously knows it’s not true – he’s sitting there alone having no one to talk to, what hurts him inside, truly hating December (particularly, as it’s time which should be spent in positive atmosphere with the closest ones). It was supposed to be ‘his time of the year’ as he loved and couldn’t wait for spending time with his beloved. The time came, but he feels in a completely different way, he feels there is something (family!) missing what makes him feel empty. He wishes he hadn’t done/said what he did/said (even if he was correct/is still convinced he was correct) just to have them around. He’s aware that the others also hurt and would sacrifice everything to make them feel good. The person wants to bring everything back, to have a warm house where he and his family would feel secure together.

    A horrible feeling, I tell you... The song made me feel this way now (even though it’s August) and brought unpleasant memories from the past. And actually made me aware of the fact that Christmas time is coming and I’ll experience it once again.

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    #2 top rated interpretation:
    barhachiel
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    Mar 27th 2006 !⃝

    Speaking in the interpretations of literature. December is significant of death and dying. Spring being birth, Summer being youthfullness, Autumn being old age and Winter... Death. My December, I think, eludes to a guy who either feels that he is dying or is in fact dying. Either way a part of him is dying. This could be from losing someone you love, or being alone and dying on the inside. You could also look at from the angel that a man is addicted to someone and the demon of addiction has finally caught up to him. He is possibly literally/figuratively dying.

    The real meaning of music, melodic poetry, is to convey a messgae to the listener. Something that strikes a chord of the person's soul. When you listen to a song, it helps to know what the artist is saying to himself a little, but if the song speaks to you in a different language, has different meanings to you, then it is just as valid.

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    #3 top rated interpretation:
    anonymous
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    Oct 28th 2008 !⃝

    To me the song is kind of talking about someone who shut themselves off from the world, and has suffered a kind of figurative death from being alone. He is at the point where he would change himself and the reasons he isolated himself in the first place just to feel loved and accepted again, and to have a place to go to where he can feel welcome despite his flaws. If he doesn't find a place to go, he will have nothing to live for, because even though he tries to pretend that he is OK, he really needs someone to look out for him.

  4. anonymous
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    Nov 30th 2019 !⃝

    My interpretation is that the 1st person is suffering from Narcissistic abuse. Those abused by Narcs, especially lovers or especially parents, are so badly damaged from the psychological, sexual and physical abuse, they end up isolating themselves, and many end up with either mental illness; depression, or mood disorders, like Borderline personality disorder or Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I know this because I have CPTSD and I was/am still the Scapegoat of a Covert-Narc Mother. They are so evil they are compared to Demons. You must look into Narcissism to understand this.

  5. anonymous
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    Jan 11th 2019 !⃝

    People get really lonely during the holidays when spending the holidays alone such as "Christmas" which is in December maybe it's not actually December or Christmas but he feels lonely after hurting someone he loves "And I
    Just wish that I didn't feel
    Like there was something I missed
    And I
    Take back all the things I said
    To make you feel like that
    And I
    Just wish that I didn't feel
    Like there was something I missed
    And I
    Take back all the things that I said to you
    And I give it all away
    Just to have somewhere to go to
    Give it all away
    To have someone to come home to" he's apologetic and remorseful. It's not about death it's loneliness.

  6. anonymous
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    Dec 2nd 2017 !⃝

    I have always loved this song so much... we cant know what exactly its about, but for sure it's concerning sufferings from a loss, loneliness, regret, feeling cold inside and out. And this how I feel now .. it's first fck December without Chester in here. From Now on the song just got another meaning and it hurts more than ever . And I'd give it all away, just to see your smile agaain...

  7. anonymous
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    Dec 5th 2016 !⃝

    This is chrisbailey who loves the song very much now he kowns the same way as he feels every day.

  8. anonymous
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    Feb 18th 2012 !⃝

    i think that it's about someone who's gotten used to be alone, living a solitary life.
    and he was trying to convince himslef that it wasn't so bad, and that being alone actually suits him "This is my December
    This is me alone
    This is me pretending/ This is all I need"

    but he realised, a little too late (it's already December = Death ), that some company wouldn't be so bad.
    and he's regretting

  9. brianthesavior
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    Feb 12th 2012 !⃝

    i think it's about him getting kicked out by his wife or girlfriend because he got in an argument and said something that he shouldn't have said to her, and he would do anything to take back everything he did and said to be with her.

  10. anonymous
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    May 15th 2011 !⃝

    I am a HUGE Linkin Park and Chester Bennington fan, I think I would know. December/Winter is about death, he feels like hes dying. It's obviously about a loved one, like his ex-wife -- Samantha. His heart was severly broken after their divorce, so he must've wrote this or more songs about that. His childhood was sad.. His parents divorced, he was into heavy drugs, failing school, etc. My idea is his divorce with Samantha and feeling like he was dying. Hope I Helped!!

  11. anonymous
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    Jan 5th 2011 !⃝

    Say ummm in that song - - > My December < - - are they singing -> And Die or And I ?

    please reply ok i love this song here is my e-mail dashley_99@yahoo on 1-4-T-11 at 10:59pm

  12. anonymous
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    Nov 13th 2010 !⃝

    Actually, this song is about death.
    It's about his friend committing suicide.
    And, he wishes that he could take back
    all of things he said so that that person
    didn't feel like he/she had to kill themselves.
    And, he wishes that he could just come home
    to them being there, being alive.
    -I AGREE.
    Notice he says he would do ANYTHING to bring this person back....and he feels its his fault. This is what it's all about.

  13. Dang_Brez
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    May 17th 2010 !⃝

    It's whatever you want it to mean. Make it personal to you.

  14. hectorrouge
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    Feb 18th 2010 !⃝

    All songs have a meaning, one meaning will be from the writers. The rest is yours to interpret. To me "My December" Is about solitude. A person tends to shut them self off to what they know. When we hide away in our mind or our rooms we always hurt those around us. Simply by neglecting to think of them we forget their feelings. I know this from experience several times I would pretend that I was alone, but when I came out I finally realized I pushed all my friends away. In the end I would hole up again wishing that I did something different.

  15. anonymous
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    Nov 17th 2008 !⃝

    The song is actually about Chester Bennington being in hospital when he was close to dying.
    And how when you're in that position you'll will give everything and anything away just to stay alive.
    How you get so desperate that you'd give up your family and children just not to die.
    'And i'd give it all away'
    :) Lauren xx

  16. anonymous
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    Jul 15th 2007 !⃝

    I Think this takes place on a birthday or anniversary or something but their lover left them a few days before.

  17. linkinpark4eva
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    Dec 29th 2006 !⃝

    to the person above: Wrong song, this is the Linkin Park song called My December, not this song "Monster".

  18. anonymous
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    Dec 29th 2006 !⃝

    Ok. I saw someone request this song so I'm going to give it a try. I'm not really a big fan of M&D but I like this song. I listened to this song over and over for atleast and hour to get a feel of the lyrics.

    In verse one they sing "His little whispers 'Love me. Love me. That's all I ask for. Love me. Love me.' He battered his tiny fists to feel something. Wondered what it's like to touch and feel something." Well, I think at this part they talking about a man (who I think is a father). It takes place at nighttime because that's when the monsters come out. Well, I think this man sexually abused or raped a little girl (whose name is Hannah). I think his wife left him and later on, he had urges to have his way with his daughter. And by the tiny fists, I think they say that because the father probably hasn't touched any child like how he's doing so it's new. And usually when we think of tiny, we think of a young person or a small child. And children have yet to experience a lot of things. So the father is getting "experience" with his daughter (that sicko).

    Then the chorus goes on to say, "Monster, how should I feel? Creatures lie here looking through the window." Here, I think it's the little girl seeking guidance from the monsters. Since she's been so afraid of her father, the monsters become her friends. I think that she's asking how should she feel because it IS her father. And she probably did love him a lot before he started abusing her. So she isn't sure if she should still love him or hate him for what he's doing. The whole "creatures lie here..." part I think it's that a few people she knows in the community (teachers, friends, neighbors, etc.) are starting to notice her changing. Like scars or she starts crying randomly and whatnot. So the creatures are the people who are trying to see what's wrong with her.

    The second verse goes on to say, "That night her caged her; bruised and broke her. He struggled closer then he stole her. Violet wrists and then her ankles; silent pain. Then he slowly saw their nightmares were his dreams." I believe this part is saying that he heard people in town talking about Hannah and how she's changed. That night, he went into her room and locked the door behind him. He beat her up pretty badly, making huge scars and possibly braking her bones. Her mentally broke her spirits as well. She probably had hopeful thoughts that the monsters would come to save her. She tried to keep him off of her but he forced himself on her and stole her life. I'm not sure. The "violet wrists..." part is pretty straight forward. He either held her wrists down with duck tape, ropes, or with his bare hands. The same goes for her ankles. Hannah suffered a lot of pain but never told anyone about it. Then the father realized that he should've never done what he did, but it was too late. Hannah was dead.

    Then the verse comes in again with a new part saying, "I will hear the voices. I'm the glass child; I am Hannah's regrets." I think that's Hannah saying that she'll still to whatever the monsters tell her to do because she thinks they'll help her. The glass child part is saying that Hannah had to be very young because young children are very fragile, spiritually and pysically. Then the "Hannah's regrets" part is probably the monster who talked to Hannah and heard the last thing she said before she died; that she wished that she told someone she trusted about her father. But, again, it's too late.

    Then the last verse says "Turn the sheets down; murder ears with pillow lace. There are bath tubs filled with glow flies. Bathe in kerosene. Their words tatooed in his veins." I think this part is about after the father killed Hannah. I think he took the bed sheets and wrapped Hannah's body in it. From there, he took her body into the bathroom. Then the father took the lacing from the pillows and used it as a wick or a fuse. I believe he put her body in the bathtub and poured gasoline ontop of her (for the whole "bathe in kerosene" part). He probably burned her body from there. And for the last line, I think her father had a seringe or a needle and injected a bit of kerosene into himself and I guess he ended his life. I believe he then heard the monsters and told him to get it over with and what not.

    Ok. I'm tired of typing. And this is what I think this song is really saying.

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