anonymous 2006-08-09 11:30:04    

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Justin tells us at the live shows that this song was written when he was on a cruise. He was standing on the prow of the ship, and started wondering what it would be like to jump off. This inspired him to write a song about someone who does that, but realizes as soon as he hits the water what a bad idea it was and how much he has to live for. The song is written from his point of view while he is there in the water.

anonymous 2006-08-10 19:12:10    

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Here's the 411 on this song. It's about how his mother (woman heard on machine at beginning of song) is diagnosed with cancer however she uses her chemo money to pay for his rehab due to his "addiction" and how in the end he rejects himself for her cause. You can hear justen's interpretation to the song with the music video on yahoo! Your welcome.

anonymous 2006-08-12 15:08:58    

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Okay the video does make it seem about his mother but in that case why the line "playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home"? I think the video is an afterthought, the song itself is written for his (ex)girlfriend. The song seems to me to be much more about the sort of love between him and his girlfriend than parental love. The message at the start is just his mother checking that he is ok after what ever has happened between him and his girl.

anonymous 2006-08-16 00:21:22    

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I think its a happy song. About love and new life. He says leave me because he means his old life. It has nothing to do with a mom, the lady atr the begiining is an ex girlfriend and the medication she stalking about it cleary code for a dose of love. Thats what I think/know.

anonymous 2006-08-17 20:05:47    

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Throughout his entire life he was killing himself, be means of drugs and turning into depression leading to hating himself and having suicidal thoughts. His mother was there "hi justin, this is your mother," (from the voice recording on the album backing up that it was his mother) and she help him all his life but by putting all herself into taking care of him, it has brought her down. Hence her dying. Its not literal, it was a figure of speech.

"in a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
while I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
you never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
you made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take"

and also, "and like a baby boy I never was a man
until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand" that he was like a child all his life and he never really frew up untill he realized what he did to her and put her through and now he wants nothing more but for her to move on with her own life because she's wasted all of her on him.

anonymous 2006-08-18 08:29:08    

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My take on this song is that it's about a son who wants to kill himself in order to rid his mother of all the trouble he has caused her over the years. But her support and love prevent him from going through with it. It would be easier to carry out the suicide if she forced him out of her life.I think the scene at the cemetary with the answering machine is another thought of suicide abandoned because of her support for him.

anonymous 2006-08-18 11:20:45    

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He was a bad kid and put his mother through a lot, but she loved him no matter what, and he could not understand this. Now that she is dead (maybe from grief her son caused)he tells her it would have been easier if she would have just hated him, then she would move on and he would not have the guilt he has for letting her down.

Cobainfan420 2006-08-29 21:22:52    

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I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
they crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
dropping little reels of tape to remind me that i’m alone
playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home

- he is trying to forget someone he loved a lot because it is to painfu

there's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain

- he is pridefull and dosent want to say sorry, but he is worried about what will happen if he dosent

an ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space

- he is talking about hurtfull words between himself and another.

Hate me today
hate me tomorrow
hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

- he just wants her to be happy and will do anything for her to be happy.

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
the one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again

- talking about how he has stopped the drugs because they tore them apart. And how he is gratefull for the help.

In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
while I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight

- he is gratefull for the help and support

you never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
you made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take

- he is giving her praise and thanking her

so i’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
and do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

-again he just wants her to be happy and he will do whatever it takes to make it so.

Hate me today
hate me tomorrow
hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

hate me in ways
yeah ways hard to swallow
hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

and with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made

- he is kicking his ass for fucking up.

And like a baby boy I never was a man
until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
and then I fell down yelling “make it go away!”
just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
and then she whispered “how can you do this to me?”

-he feels bad for making her sad, and putting her through so much pain and he is just reliving it in the song.

Hate me today
hate me tomorrow
hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

hate me in ways
yeah ways hard to swallow
hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

i hope you find my intepretation correct and enlightning

anonymous 2006-08-31 22:47:32    

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The ending scene in the graveyard...I'm dying to know whose name is on that wreath of flowers--"in memory of..."

its a woman's name, but who is she??

Someone please shed some light on this

anonymous 2006-09-04 17:12:34    

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I know that there is a message from his mother in the beginning, but I don't think this song is directed at her. I think it's about someone with a troubled past (I thought the medication she referenced was probably anti depressants) who's trying to shake off an unhealthy relationship with an ex. I can't tell if he doesn't want to be with her, or just doesn't want to bring her down.

I think it seems more like he cares about her, but isn't interested in being with her anymore, and everytime she calls him or tells him she loves him, he has to hurt her and he wants her to give up and move on. He reminds her of all the times he let her down and all the reasons he's bad for her. I definitely do not think he is talking to his mother, rather, the voicemail is just giving insight to his frame of mind.

anonymous 2006-09-05 14:02:46    

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Ok, this is definitely not about a break up. I can vaguely see how people might think it is, but if you really listen to the lyrics, then it's pretty obvious it isn't. And at first, I didn't think it was directed to his mother, but now I'm pretty sure it is. And yeah, it's pretty obviously about drugs.

I'm not going to quote a bunch of lyrics here, but this:

"and will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space"

means he was the one who rejected her help, but he wanted her to keep helping.

In the short version, i'd say either he died and he's saying he wishes she'd hate him so he wouldn't cause her more pain or she died and he's appologising.

"i’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
the one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again "

see, that could either mean he's been dead for three months or she has. The more I listen to it, the more I think it makes more sense that he's dead. Anyway, that's just what I think.

anonymous 2006-09-06 01:20:52    

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I think the song is about the same he feels about the way he treated his mother while in the midst of his addiction. And how he thinks she should feel about what he did to her. But then he says he's been sober for 3 whole months that's one accomplishment you helped me with and the line that says what tore them apart he won't touch again. So to me its like a tradegity that he has has to deal with and the triumph over it. I can relate to it very much because of my own struggles with drugs and alchol and the shame I feel about the way I treated my mother which was what attracted me to the song.

anonymous 2006-09-06 09:07:57    

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To anonymous: anti-depressants aren´t addictive, but tranquilizers, painkillers etc. are.

blondchick12117 2006-09-07 17:19:24    

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I think that the song is about how he really screwed up through his teenage years and wishes he had been better to his mom who was only trying to help. He comits suicide and says hate me so you can have a better life and live it fully. In the video he puts her voice on "a" grave. I think it is his grave and that it is not really him but he is still not forgiving himself so the answering machine is there kind of as a symbol that he will never forgive himself.

anonymous 2006-09-09 06:36:38    

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Here's why I like this song ... I was with a woman that I loved dearly, but our relationship was one that couldn't exist. We were together for a breif period of time and we/she decided we needed to end it ... I was devastated and I stil think about her, my memories of her will always be there and the passionate time we had together. I wish she could hate me so it would make it easier for me to understand why we're not together.

That's why I like this song .. .And at the same time, hate it.

anonymous 2006-09-11 08:09:32    

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I have wondered for a while now what the meaning is behind these lyrics. My 13 year old loves this song and it concerned me for her to listen to it (children are so emotionally "strung out" at this age and everything is the "end of the world", so I didn't want her to listen to anyting that "glorified" suicide). After reading your comments though, I will agree. I believe the song is about a son, who put his mother through some hard times (maybe drugs or something due to bipolar or another psychological disease)and then when she died, it was his "defining moment". He wanted her to "hate" him because it was easier than having her love him with all the hell he put her through, yet she didn't even in the end and it made him re-evaluate his life and his addictions. After hearing this interpretation, I actually like the song more. It is a struggle for children to please their parents and the message is ultimately is that you can really screw up and they will still love you unconditionally.

anonymous 2006-09-11 14:09:16    

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It's about a son who was heavy into drugs and alcohol, tempted suicide, the mother was always there for him throughtout it all.
And in the song he's just saying how he won't touch it anymore etc
and how he thinks she's better off without him.
And so on

anonymous 2006-09-23 20:18:09    

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I think it is about a mother and a son. The mother loved the son no what he did, but the son didn't care. One day the the son couldn't take it anymore so he grabbed her and stabbed her. He feels that she would be better off if she just hated him for all the things he put her through

anonymous 2006-09-24 17:50:12    

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I too misinterpreted this song to be talking about his girlfriend or wife, but after watching the video about 3 or 4 times, I realized the video was actually showing him growing from a boy to a man and how his mom was there beside him as he slowly deteriorated into the abusive [inferred by the song] addict who hurt his mother deeply [likely psychologically]. It also states how she was eventually able to get him to stop the addiction, but only in her death. He wished she would have hated him so she could have lived her own life and the fact that she devoted her life to his tears him apart, because now it is too late... Which is why he puts the recorder on her grave - to remove the constant memory that drives him insane...

anonymous 2006-09-26 22:45:52    

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I think the the guy is mad because his mom fucked him in the ass with a dildo when he was young.