anonymous February 2nd, 2010 04:50AM  
I am going to interpret the song Disposition as how I think it could apply to M's life. I don't know him and am not claiming to. I do know that he says his songs are what we make of them and how they can be applied to our own life experiences, as long as what we make of them is logical and reasonable. Anyways, if you listen to Disposition as a part of what has been referred to as "The Holy Gift", which is a rearrangement of the Lateralus tracklist based on the Fibonacci sequence, it comes after the song The Patient. In The Patient, M keeps saying "I must keep reminding myself of this..." which I interpret as to try to be patient during stressful moments in time or to just be patient in general, it is,after all, a virtue. He then goes on to say, "gonna wait it out". Now I understand this song can be viewed many different ways, depending on the listener's background and how it possibly relates to them, but think about how it could apply to M. In Disposition, M keeps saying "mention this to me. Something...anything..." As the song goes on it's almost as if he's pleading this to someone. I personally think he could be talking to his mother. I wouldn't know because I have never had to deal with a situation like M's but I can only imagine how something like ghat would wear on you day after day, year after year, decade after decade. I feel as if he's asking his mother for the strength to be patient and wait out the situation, and would literally like to get a reply from her, hence the "mention something...mention anything..." and because he knows she can't right now, he's going back to "watch the weather change". Think about having to endure something like that. I know it would definitely affect my disposition...