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Billie Eilish: everything i wanted Meaning

Tagged: Suicide [suggest]

Song Released: 2019


everything i wanted Lyrics

I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
Not what you'd think
And if I'm being honest

It might have been a nightmare
To anyone who might care

Thought I could fly
So I stepped off the golden
Nobody cried
Nobody even noticed

I saw...

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    #1 top rated interpretation:
    anonymous
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    Apr 29th 2020 report

    This is about a dream she had where she committed suicide, but nobody cared. Then the line repeats and says 'and you say, as long as I am here, no one can hurt you' etc. This refers to her brother, Fineas. It's about her relationship with him, but also some other things. Her depression, for one, but also her sleep paralysis. The line 'I tried to scream, but my head was underwater' refers to this. It means she tried to scream, but she couldn't.

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    #2 top rated interpretation:
    anonymous
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    Apr 22nd 2020 report

    This is about the dream she had about suicide.
    Where she jumped off the Golden Gate Bridge ”I stepped off the Golden”
    Every friend and person she worked with then says they never liked her ”nobody cried, nobody even noticed” and ”i saw them standing right there. Kinda thought they might care.”
    The Golden Gate Bridge is, clearly, above water ” I tried to scream, but my head was underwater”
    It is also talking about her relationship with Finneas, her brother ”but when I wake up I see you with me. And you say ’as long as I'm here, no one can hurt you. Don't wanna lie here but you can learn to. If I could change the way that you see yourself, you wouldn't wonder why you hear they don't deserve you’”

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    #3 top rated interpretation:
    anonymous
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    Nov 19th 2019 report

    It's about that she dreamed about killing herself and that her brother is keeping her alive

  4. anonymous
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    Feb 3rd 2022 report

    [Verse 1]

    I had a dream
    I got everything I wanted
    Not what you'd think
    And if I'm being honest
    It might've been a nightmare
    To anyone who might care
    Thought I could fly (fly)
    So I stepped off the Golden, hmm

    [She had a dream in which she committed suicide by stepping off the Golden Gate Bridge]

    Nobody cried
    Nobody even noticed
    I saw them standing right there
    Kinda thought they might care

    [In the dream, she had expected other people people to be sad, or at least notice her suicide, but they did not]

    [Pre-Chorus]

    I had a dream
    I got everything I wanted
    But when I wake up, I see
    You with me

    [Chorus]

    And you say
    "As long as I'm here, no one can hurt you"
    Don't wanna lie here, but you can learn to
    If I could change the way that you see yourself
    You wouldn't wonder why here
    They don't deserve you

    [Outside of the dream, her brother is comforting her and trying to keep her safe from suicide]

    [Verse 2]

    I tried to scream
    But my head was underwater
    They called me weak
    Like I'm not just somebody's daughter
    Could've been a nightmare
    But it felt like they were right there
    And it feels like yesterday was a year ago
    But I don't wanna let anybody know
    'Cause everybody wants something from me now
    And I don't wanna let 'em down
    [She does not want to let her fans down, although it is a lot of pressure for her]

    [Outro]

    If I knew it all then, would I do it again?
    Would I do it again?
    If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
    What would they say instead?
    If I knew it all then, would I do it again?
    Would I do it again?
    If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
    What would they say instead?

    [She is now wondering if she had realized how much her brother cared for her, and she were back on the bridge, if she would jump again or not. She is also wondering how people would treat her and talk to her differently if they knew that she was under a lot of pressure and what they said could have a large effect on her]

  5. anonymous
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    Sep 10th 2020 report

    I think what it means is that everything has a price like u can definitely tell that it’s a suicide dream but if she got “everything she wanted” then why would she fly which is why I think ot’s definitely a suicide dream but there is a price to everything like if she’s flying and she jumped then I think it’s her thinking about everything like (random example:) her family which is why she can’t fly her brother and family are stopping her

  6. anonymous
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    Jul 15th 2020 report

    I think the song is about Billie's dream she clearly states that it was not everything she wanted it seems like its a suicidal dream since she jumps off the golden but it seems like others(friends) didn't care since no one cried or even noticed on falling from the golden gate bridge she tries to ask for help since she is drowning but no body went to her rescue and now here is where her brother comes in and assures her that as long as he is around no one would hurt her he tries to tell her that the people who I think are her friends don't deserve her since they don't see her value.I really love this song❤❤❤

  7. anonymous
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    Apr 7th 2020 report

    The thing is she been probably been bullied and hurt to try to commit suicide and shes also been helping so much people depend on her as well.

    This interpretation has been marked as poor. view anyway
  8. billiewonders
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    Mar 27th 2020 report

    so billie is now amazingly famous which is what she always dreamt of i guess so i think now that she has gotten what she always wanted she finds out that it has freaky and terrible consequences for it and hell nobody can deny that billies songs are deep as fuck "i had a dream i got everything i wanted not you'd think and if im being honest it might have been a nightmare" this might be when she finally realizes that being famous has harsh consequences "but when i wake up i see you with me" i think she is directing this to the people who support her through everything "i tried to scream but my head was under water" she isn't allowed to fully speak her mind cause no matter what she says there is always a negative outcome of it if she says "i like staring at fire" she just expressed her own thought but people might be like "eww you're fucked up or shit like that ...lol im tired of writing

  9. anonymous
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    Feb 26th 2020 report

    I believe this song is explaining the life of a woman that was a go-getter to the point of exhaustion. She always had the goal of pleasing others, but what she failed to understand is that these people did not care about her. She never felt heard, important, or truly understood. She was breaking, but she didn't know how to break the cycle of overextending herself to only be left to feel even more alone.

    Then something happened that connected her with her protector. This person insisted that she lay low and not associate with those people that were heavy on her energy. He's telling her that she's incredible, and when she realizes that, she won't want to associate with others the way she previously did. He is going to keep her safe as long as he is able.

  10. anonymous
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    Jan 23rd 2020 report

    I think first of all her song gave great visual images. I can see her falling down a colorful river of abstraction and grasping in every direction, and then looking over at all of the people that were "right there".

  11. anonymous
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    Nov 19th 2019 report

    I think the meaning of this song is about her in her dream thinking she could fly so she fell but then went down to the water. The lyrics "thought i could fly so i stepped off the golden" explains it. Nobody noticed or cared. "Nobody cried nobody even noticed" makes ut understand. So basically its about her having a bad dream of committing suicide


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