Meg & Dia: Monster Meaning
Song Released: 2006
Love Me. Love Me.
That's all I ask for.
Love Me. Love Me.
He battered his tiny fists to feel something.
Wondered what it's like to touch and feel something.
How should I feel?
Creatures lie here.
anonymous Jul 19th, 2007 7:21am report
This song is about the story they wrote. They posted it on a blog. Hope this sheds some light on the subject:
Hello. Here are the lyrics to Monster written by a collaboration of Meg and I. Many of our songs that we write, and many of the ones that will be on the new record are about stories. Stories about friends, about strangers, about history, and about characters in some of our most favorite books. Posted below are the actual lyrics to "Monster," as well as the short story I wrote next to those lines along time ago.
Sidenotes and afternotes for the more curious and unsatisfied....by Dia.
The couch. Always behind the couch. Under the table. The closet under the stairs. Three places to run. Three places to hide. Every time their voices would rise I would run to the closest sanctuary and thank God I was small enough to fit. Those voices that ran across each corner of the room seemed to reverberate off my very skin. Dad. He told me to call him Sir. Never Dad. Mom. She told me to call her Hannah. She was so pretty when she slept. She was so pretty when she was happy. Now, her body of twenty years was old. Tired from no sleep, breaking from fingertips pressed into her sides, and boiling with too hard of liquor for her fragile, porcelain outline.
After every uproar, every tear by her, and every empty bottle by him they would come looking. Her, happy to see him turn his malice towards me. Him, happy to turn his malice away from himself. I was the six year old pathetic coward.
Sir, I would say.
My eyes would wander to Hannah with frightened curiosity.
What had I done?
I called him sir. I called her Hannah.
They called me Henry at school.
They called me Henry at church.
They called me Monster at home.
After black, they would confine me to my room. A tiny room with one window, where their words said minutes earlier would form long sentences and wrap around in a circle above my head like those music boxes loving mothers would clip to the sides of their infants cribs. I hated my room. I hated the dark. They knew it, too, and took pleasure in locking me in. Locking me in where they could get me.
Dear Reader: Please note, if you ever were a six year old child, remember what it was like to lay in bed and imagine that loud heartbeat pulsing thick from underneath your mattress. Remember that hand that hovered over your face once you closed your eyes. Remember that loud breathing that resided around your open window. The creatures. That white little girl that crawled towards you in the night, hair hanging around the neck, fingers outstretched. To a child it is horrid. To an adult, it is a memory that most barely ever remember.
Twenty years later.
I didn't understand love. I didn't understand human connection. I only understood the weather: constantly changing. I understood change. I didn't understand safety, or any emotion, be it love, or hate, that could be unconditional.
I was at my second year of college. I was striving to be a writer. I didn't trust the crowds. I would go to my apartment, sit at my small desk I had gotten at a garage sale, and stay there for hours with my books, my papers, and a bottle of brandy. Then the day would end, and I'd get ready for the next.
I slept with the lights on.
I didn't want many things, but every once in a while, I hate to admit, I would want to feel that popular emotion I had read about in so many books: love. I was scared to administer it myself. I was scared to feel for another person.
So things happened.
On the walk to my apartment I saw a girl in a red sweater. I pardoned her and asked her if she knew where Rebecca street was. She looked at me in a funny way, paused, and turned her back to me. My hands ran to her shoulders, my lips to her neck. Hard fingers, hard hands. Her soft hair, thin ankles.
I ran off, leaving the crème skinned girl crying at her violette bruises left in patches under her sweater and skirt.
I had been born of glass but now I only felt apathy. No regrets, but still, that hard human pain that is there when you know you have done a terrible trespass.
I went back to my apartment. I turned all the lights on and opened the window. The night was calm and beautiful. The wind brought in glow flies by the dozen. They did not bother me like they did to most locals here. They brought light and company and I loved them with all my heart. I broke the lamps and poured the liquid into the bath tub. Small shards of porcelain glass managed to mix in with the water as well, that was now pouring from the faucet. I added the remaining kerosene I kept under my sink and by my desk which I had used as a denaturant for my alcohol.
Maybe it would have the same effect on me..
Hope it did you well - Amaryllis
anonymous Jul 11th, 2007 7:55pm report
This song was written by Meg & Dia based a story that they wrote. It was about a kid named Henry who wasn't loved by his father of mother, Hannah (Hannah's regret). He grows up and knows nothing about emotions and so he see this girl he wants to talk to. When he tries to talk to her she turns away and he grabs her and she can't git away (cages her). He beats and bruises her, and then stole her virginity. After that he kills himself. So basically this whole song is about a boy/man who raped a girl
anonymous Sep 18th, 2007 9:41pm report
I really like this song a lot it seems to have very strong feelings in it. There are many ways to interpret this song but my view of this song was that this girl in the song is singing about her parents’ relationship. Hannah is her mother, in the song it says “I am a glass child, I am Hannah’s regrets.” This tells me that Hannah’s mom was beaten and possibly raped and the girl was born or she just didn’t want her, either that or Hannah’s regret is her father. It’s hard to say but all I know for sure is that this song has a lot to do with abuse. By saying she is a glass child, it shows the girls delicateness.
To me this song was meant for teenagers since it talks about her parents and their problems/ her parents problems. All she really wants is to be loved but she is not, she faces a monster, and her father is that monster.
I don’t really think this song has a positive or negative message. Too me this song basically tells a story, a story about a bad child hood. I think for teenagers or just people in general who have gone through these types of things like this it is a very meaningful song.
anonymous Dec 17th, 12:51am report
Idk why but this makes me think of creepypasta everytime I hear it, especially BEN drowned because he was abused and beaten by his parents, but they would suck up to him and buy him video games while henry's "parents" didn't. Hannah was his mother whom I assumed was raped, and so henry was the "monster" that ruined his life. He grows up, sees a girl, thinks shes pretty and thinks that's love (because that is basically how characters in books fall in love is for their looks) and rapes her, he realizes that his "dream" for love is others "nightmares" so he kills himself.
anonymous Aug 23rd, 2015 8:42pm report
the song "monster" summarizes the story about a boy named henry who was born out the result of rape done to hannah (his mother) by his father (who forces him to call him sir) neither hannah nor the anonymous man allow henry to call them mom and dad because they do not wish be in his life as any prarental figure. So he calls them Hannah and sir to disfigure any connection made between them and him, and they call him monster. All through out his childhood his father would beat his mother and curse her out, and do the same thing to him. Since Hannah doesn't care for her regretted son, she is relieved wen his father harasses him instead of her because she then can have time to heal- (temporarily, until his father beats on her again.) Henry always wanted to experience love, but Since Henry grows up with abuse as his only way of knowing interaction and later kidnaps and does actions to the girl that he is familiar with because its his only way of showing her his love for her.
Well, I can't say I didn't feel so twisted inide after reading the story because things like that happen everyday in the real world... but according to the story "east of eden" and song by meg and dia at least we'll have an idea of why some rapists end up doing what they do :\ i'm not saying that justifies rape, but it's a very possible reason that makes the most sense for that crime.
anonymous Oct 20th, 2014 10:19pm report
Well I USED to think its about this abusive dad. Hannah married him and had a child with him. But then regretted it cause after the child was born he showed his true colors. The mom ran away leaving her child and she (the child) learned not to have emotion but then finally committed suicide.
anonymous Aug 15th, 2014 8:42am report
I think its about a boy who wants to feel love but cant so he sees a girl he though she was cute so he though that love is rape so he ties the girl up and takes her to his appartment and has sex with her and takes her virginty and and beats her up once he was done he found out she didnt like it so he borned him self up screaming monster and ya
anonymous Jun 26th, 2014 6:32pm report
This song is about a boy named Henry, who is abused by his parents. His mom,Hannah, had him at like 14 years old and didn't love him and didn't love him. The Dad would abuse Hannah and Henry and Hannah would be happy anytime the dad would abuse Henry because it gave her a break. So they would call him monster all the time at home but never in public, and they would lock him into a tiny room in the dark and the room only has one window. Henry is 6 years old so he is terrified of the dark and sees creatures looking through the only window in the room and he's scared. Soon he gets used to it and doesn't feel anything not fear, not love, not even pain because his parent's words hurt him enough. So when he grows up he isolates himself because he has always been isolated and reads a ton of books and they all seem to include love but Henry doesn't know much about that because his parents didn't love each other and all he saw was abuse and they didn't love him. So he sees a beautiful girl and he thinks he loves her so he takes her somewhere and ties her up around her wrists and ankles and abuses and rapes her because that's what he thinks love is like. he leaves her crying and goes home and realizes that she did not enjoy that at all and realizes that he truly is a monster. So he burns up the bathtub with kerosene to kill himself and "their words tattooed into his veins" means that what his parents repeatedly called him (monster) is true because he has become a monster.
anonymous May 29th, 2014 5:07pm report
The first part is About the boy who wants love but not gets it.
The main part is about the raped girl because she's afraid
The song then goes with how the girl gets tied up, the boy that abused and raped her and realized he's dreams were cruel to the other people.
He then is so depressed.
He lit his bathtub on fire ( glow flies,kerosene ) and murdered himself.
anonymous Apr 24th, 2014 4:45pm report
That the boy never had the feeling love. His parents rejected him. Keeping him in the dark, making it seem that he is never alive. "I am Hannah's regrets." Is about how he is a mistake, that his birth wasn't sposto to hapen. Later in his life, he only knows the feelings of, pain, misery, sadness, ext (bad things). He tries to love. But with the line " That night he caged her, bruised and broke her he struggled closer, then he stole her vilote wrists and then her ankels silent pain" Is about that is what he only knew how to show emotion, of were he got that from his abuseive parents.
- Well that's some of what I thought of (might not be accuret but to bad!!)
anonymous May 28th, 2013 5:02pm report
What is the name of the book?
anonymous Mar 12th, 2013 3:28pm report
SI think the song is about Hannah and Henry. The story says Hannah was 20 years old and Henry was 6 which would mean Hannah would've been about 14 years old when she had Henry. She regrets Henry which means she can't love him, he is only the biggest mistake of her life, a monster. She marries the first man she meets though he is abusive, she doesn't care she just wants to be taken care of. Henry grows up disconnected from others, an outcast unloved, he dosen't know what love is. He sees a girl, he thinks she is beautiful, he thinks he loves her so he rapes her. He thinks about his fantacies and dreams and realizes they are only someone's nightmares and worst fears. He has to kill the monster, so he burns himself with his fantacies fresh in his mind. He is free from being Hannah's regret, free from being a monster.
Just a wild guess. :)
anonymous Feb 24th, 2013 2:08pm report
I love this song!It is about a boy,who his parents doesnt love him.They called him a monster and he truly become one,becuase he couldnt felt nothing.So he abused a girl thinkeing that is love.He has a mother called Hannah.After he understand what he did he cilled himself.Sad,but i LOVE it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
anonymous Feb 7th, 2013 2:31am report
I think it's about a boy and his parents were neglecting him and abusing him and one day he had enough of it. He kills his parents and grows up to be an abuser he rapes a bunch of people boys or girls. He could pretend to be gay. Many women become pregnant and he never sticks around. He stays with one girl named Hannah. They have a boy who he abuses. Later the father dies. The boy is a glass child. He is Hannah's regrets.
anonymous Jan 27th, 2013 1:08pm report
Its a very sad song but its about a little boy who was the son of hannah who was raped. He was the son of a sinner and hanna did not love him, she would not ignoledge him. He grew up isolated without love, and he wanted to feel something. "Creatures lie here looking through the window" means as he was a child he was most likely abused by his mother and his father and he was locked in his room in the dark. So he is scared , oh so scared of the monsters around him. When he grows up he is alone and scared of the dark, one day he sees a girl, he wants to feel love so badly so he kidnappes her and he rapes her for he thought that was love. As he took her virginity he relized he was still lonley and he slowly realized that what he wanted was what she feared and that he scared her and she feared him . Then he realizes he is his mothers regrets he is a glass child he feels nothing. Then he fills a bathtub full of krosene witch is feul and the glow flies are either bugs or sparks but the sparkes of flame in the bathtub as he burns himself alive.
anonymous Nov 2nd, 2012 11:37pm report
Hannah is the mother of the boy.. The boy is called a monster in their home.. He struggled to get love from his parents.. As the lyrics said "hannahs regrets" it means his mother hannah regrets to have a child like him.. And on the first line lyric in the song "his little whispers, love me love me, thats all i ask for love me love me." It means he asks love but he couldnt get one.. He saw a girl.. That girl ignored him.. So the boy plans to cage her that night.. And starting doing violent things to her.. Like in the song "that night he caged her. Bruised and Broke her. He struggled closer then he STOLE HER" the one in caps lock means he stole the virginity of the girl (or in other terms the girl got raped).. In the song the girls ankles and wrists became violet because of violent thongs being done to her.. As the lyric says "violet wrist and then her ankles SILENT PAIN" the one in caps lock means she carried the pain unable to speak because of the pain she feel.. On the continuation of the lyric "then he saw his nightmares were his dreams" he thought that it was a dream that he raped a girl but the he did do it and now he looks at hiself as a MONSTER . On the girls part.. (I think shes the one who said this) "MONSTER. How should i feel? Creatures lie here. Looking through the window/s" it means the girl is saying 'what should i feel after what you have done to me??' She sees that there is many monsters around but hes the worst one she knew on the other line of the lyric "im a glass child" it means she is very delicate (the lyric has a continuation of 'i am hannahs regrets' but i already gave the meaning search for it above if you already have forgotten..) on the other other part of the lyric on the very end "turn the sheets down murder ears with pillow lace theres bath tubs full of glow flies bath in kerosene their words tattoed in his veins" it means her ears is murdered beacause of the violent words he says..Turn the sheets down means she dosent want to get raped.. Bath in kerosene means the boy killed himself because he raped the girl and realizes that he is a monster he poured the kerosene in his bathtub and fires it.. Tattoed in his veins means he always remember the shouts of the girl crying to get help until she cannot speak because of the pain she feels.. (Sorry i cant give you the meaning of full of glow flies but i think its a firefly.. Lol anyways thanks for reading.. :) :* byeee..)
anonymous Jul 31st, 2012 7:55am report
Hannah is not megs mother shes the boys mom. the song is about a boy who had abusive parents who called him monster and locked him in his room with no lights and just one window. Hannah didn't want a baby in the first place. her husband raped her a lot but he didn't want a baby either that's way he made his son call him sir and not father because he didn't want to be a father. and that's why Hannah would always call min her regret. with abusive parents the boy didn't really communicate with anyone and no one really talked to him either so he was basically the outcast throughout life. with this he was never loved but he read a lot about love through books and then he started to want that feeling, that feeling everybody felt. so one day when he was walking home he saw this really beautiful girl and wanted to talk to her, but he didn't really know how so he just went up to her and asked her where some random street was and then she just ignored him and kept walking. then he garbed her and started kissing her by force and then he took her to his apartment and then put her in a cage then practicably beated her up and when she was starting to become weak and not able to fight back he raped her. after that he realized that he was a true monster so he poured all his liquor in his bathtub, took his clothes off and lit the whole thing on fire. while burning to death he thought to himself, "i deserve this, i deserve to die, i am what my parents always thought i was, i am a monster.
anonymous Jun 28th, 2012 6:26pm report
This song is about a boy, Henry and his father and mother hate him, because he was a mistake, so he grows up not knowing what it feels like to love someone. Then one night he sees a girl and he rapes her and beats her. When he gets home he realizes he is a monster and he kills himself in the bath tub. This song is originally from a story Meg and Dia wrote.
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