Five Finger Death Punch: Remember Everything Meaning
Song Released: 2011
Remember Everything Lyrics
I'm sorry, I wasn't good enough
Dear Father, forgive me
Cause in your eyes, I just never added up
In my heart I know I failed you, but you left me here alone
If I could hold back the rain, would you numb...
1TOP RATED#1 top rated interpretation:anonymous Dec 15th 2011 report
This song is about someone who had been betrayed by some of his family, making him bitter as a young man. (hence "I remember everything") So in turn like all of you say, he left them all. But when he left his family he turned his back on people that never betrayed him like his brother and sister. Now he's let the past go and he is being a bigger person by apologizing first.
2TOP RATED#2 top rated interpretation:anonymous Jan 31st 2012 report
To me, this sounds as if it is a suicide note of a man who has been disowned by his family for their poor perception of the outcome of his life ( for whatever reason, it is never clearly specified) and this is him desperately asking for one last chance of them to accept him back in, or he feels suicide is the only way to ease the pain of his lonliness. The line " if i could hold back the rain ( referring to the gloom and sorrow of his death), would you numb the pain" ( asking them to be a part of his life and ease his suffering).. The "cause i remember everything" part can only let the listener imagine what things in the past the family put him through to create this distraught i individual.. Because this part is left intentionally open to individual interpretation is one of the biggest reasons i think this song to be a suicide note because it makes thr lyrics very personal between the narrator and his family he sings of, as they would obviously know what he is referring to.. This altpgether makes for a very powerful, emotionally charged piece.. Very well executed.. I can only hope and pray for whomever this man is if indeed it does have basis from an acutal event.
3TOP RATED#3 top rated interpretation:anonymous Jan 6th 2013 report
I could have written this song myself. It is about abuse as a child and how it affects EVERYTHING you do from then on. Even though it may not have been true, the writer perceives this abuse as "not being good enough", and feels as if he betrayed his family. The video shows clearly what I'm saying, the kid was abused, his father was an alcoholic, he himself grew up and became an alcoholic, and enrolled in the army trying to get away from the numbness emotional abuse produces but all he got was PTSD, and he destroyed everything he had (family, car, money, time, etc). He "turned into his father". Only as he was dying did the regret and resentment (symbolized by the coin) left him (coin fell to the floor), and then he flatlined but the letting go brought him back to life (notice the kid was in the white room clean from any drawings, symbolizing a fresh start). There ya have it!. Awesome song and I would love to hear the story behind it.
anonymous Jan 31st 2021 report
Excuse the mess but I’ll try to explain it out of my point of view.
For me this song is about leaving people (family) behind or in the unknown thinking you can get better by yourself without being a burden. I was abused as a child and I never told my parents or sibling about it I felt like I was too much of a burden to them already so I didn’t say anything. I dealt with everything alone for 4 years until I got out of there and my parents still don’t know the whole abuse I’ve been through. So the individual parts of the song all make sense from my point of view it’s like they wrote a song about what’s in my head and what I never told my parents or got to say to them. “Dear mother I love you I’m sorry I wasn’t good enough” I wanted to say sorry to my mom for so long but never knew how to because when she found out she blamed herself. She always worried about me because I was never like other kids I had to grow up and protect myself way too fast. I always thought I wasn’t good enough because of my grades, of the way I acted at home. She went through so much trouble because of me constantly worried that I’m not gonna make it or that something will happen to me because I almost died when I was born. That’s the biggest reason why I didn’t tell her about the abuse though, because I didn't want her to blame herself, and I knew that she couldn't had done anything without sending me off elsewhere, and I just couldn’t put my parents through that. The part “Dear father forgive me cause in your eyes I just never added up” hits also very closely because of the abuse and for me being a very impulsive person in general (causing me anger issues) I got into a lot of fights and my dad was always mad at me because he thought I did it just to piss him off. He was always disappointed in me for choosing violence over logic. When he found out he asked me why I didn’t come to him and told him that I was getting abused but I was abused by people with authority and I always thought that it was my fault. The thing I learnt all my life is “when anything bad happens you’ll get punished” so I was scared I thought the abuser was right I was still a kid after all. Both parts where the lyrics go “dear brother just don’t hate me for never standing by you or being by your side” and “dear sister please don’t blame me I only did what I thought was truly right” are fitting to my sibling I took a lot of my frustration out on them because we were both impulsive and the “normal” sibling fights would turn to full blown knife fights. So I never stood behind them I most certainly stabbed them in the back (no pun intended..) the dear sister part is more directed to me getting into fights at school I did a lot of brutal things even though I was just a child. Long story short I almost killed someone back then only because they were provoking me everyday trying to push me to the edge and I snapped I lost control over my actions because I was so blinded by rage. And I’m not saying it was right but back then I thought being feared will give me peace at least from the other kids in my class. And it definitely worked for them so I always kept going with stuff like that I always choose violence over logic and my sister was always mad at me when I came home with my knuckles all bruised up knowing exactly what I did.
“It’s a long and lonely road when you know you walk alone” could be about the abuse when your still in it or when you’re on your way of recovery and writing this as a letter maybe in therapy or something. “I feel like running away I’m still so far from home you say that I’ll never change but what the fuck do you know I’ll burn it all to the ground before I let you in please forgive me I can’t forgive you now” When my parents and sibling found out our relationship that wasn’t good to begin with broke completely and I felt like I didn’t have a home anymore I was already too far gone with my mind to understand their point of view I only saw pain and misunderstanding. Because their first reaction wasn’t about how I was doing and how I felt. Their first reaction was “what did you do to make someone so mad? Why didn’t you tell someone if it was so bad?” or simply saying “ that’s no excuse for what you did” after awhile my parents tried seeing things from my side but still couldn’t understanding why I didn’t do anything about it or talked to them. So they started to blame themselves for not seeing that there was a problem with me. We still don’t really talk about it and I always felt like i couldn’t forgive them yet for the way they responded. “You say that I’ll never change but what the fuck do you know I’ll burn it all to the ground before I let you” is easy to explain because when you go through abuse or you recover from it you don’t trust anybody you’re trying to fight the demons in your head that say “you’ll never change” but you literally tell them “what the fuck do you know”. My biggest problem always was and always will be my self doubt.
“If I could help you forget would you take my regret” is directed to my sibling saying I’m sorry that I took it out on you and I hope that you will forgive me one day. “I remember everything” is mostly talking for itself saying I’ll never forget what I went through, for me it’s about the nightmares I had since then reliving the abuse over and over again. “If I could hold back the rain would you numb the pain” is about saying if I could’ve pulled myself out of my mind would they hold me and tell me it’s gonna be okay. Saying we’ll get through this together.
So personally for me this is about trying to survive mental and physical abuse outside of the family and basically writing a letter to them, explaining and trying to make them understand why I acted the way I did. To seek some kind of redemption for the things they had to go through and put up with.
anonymous Dec 24th 2020 report
There is NO DOUBT in my mind (pardon the pun to those who know) that this song represents identity theft at its highest level. It is absolutely about nanotechnology being used for “empowerment” that is getting exploited by rogue people in the intelligence community. Quest Diagnostics is primarily the ones with the technology to create a whole brain emulation of any human on earth from a holographic brain map they already have stored for each and every one of you. The song shows a person in a wheel chair and dies in the hospital dropping a quarter when Ivan picks it up. That represents the inheritance the person dying would have gotten. Now Ivan (identity thief) takes the inheritance (or life insurance policies) and changes his name to the person that died ( flatlined ). He then is empowered with a whole brain emulated neural network that has all the information available to him when asked any question anyone wants to ask him and it’s almost like the dead person was “reborn” or given a different body. Then they liquidate all the assets (through civil forfeiture laws) and the money goes to the “relocated person with a new and improved body”. It is absolutely murder that is getting done through developmental programs the NSA is involved with. The reason he goes into the hospital cripple, is because they use frequencies specific to the victims DNA resonance frequency and then they are attacked using the same technology the DHS uses to kill suspected terrorists. Basically your spinal nerves are attacked at the base of your neck while you are on a tracking lock of a surveillance drone and the Doppler Radar or HAARP antenna is accessed through a hacked gateway or rogue person in the intelligence community and specific frequencies are sent through the Doppler that damage the nerves. The voltage from the tracking lock keeps your nerves functioning while connected. But after they harass you and provoke you 24/7 and cultivate criminal charges with artificial intelligence voices, they will incarcerate you or institutionalize you as if your crazy. The tracking lock will be removed and guess what? Your nerves are too damaged at normal voltage levels to make your heart contract. You die within 30 days of the tracking lock being removed. I am a victim of this crime and it is unbelievable how hard it is to convince anyone that this is happening. The community based agents are also using crystals to broadcast through FM epsilon shortwave radio human tissue frequencies found right on the FCC WEBSITE PROVIDED BY THE AIR FORCE a conversion tool that gives specific frequencies for body tissue. It is absolutely unbelievable they don’t just give a range and instead make it possible to convert specific frequencies right down to an individual persons unique frequency to any part of a human body. Anyway, hope this insanity comes to an end while I am still alive. If not, good luck everyone!
anonymous Feb 7th 2020 report
This song hits me as hard as a bullet train and turns me into a blubbering mess every time for many reasons i had issues with being bullied and that gave anger issues and had a tendency of lashing out Not to mention many other psychological issues and I Didn’t want to do it but I couldn’t control myself But one day moved from fort Atkinson to Platteville and I was given a chance to to have a second chance but I had to cut ties with some people who were friends with me there and especially a girl I grew close to and I’m still haunted by my past actions and I wanna forget about them but like the song says “I remember everything” I know I will never get forgiveness or be able to apologize to them from those from fort but I strive for redemption but I hate myself for wanting forgiveness and apologize to them after everything they did to me that’s another reason this song hits me so hard and much like the song says “I remember everything” and I remember everything that happened to me and I will never forget the hell they put me through
anonymous Nov 10th 2019 report
I dont think the song is a suicide letter but I think the song is basically him saying he's sorry to his parents and siblings for screwing things up, and saying that he knows that hes failed them,but at the same time they just fucking left him so what was he supposed to do. I think it's in a position in which nobody can place blame on anyone because in the end there all to blame.
anonymous Nov 5th 2019 report
This song is about the army and the pain and PTSD men and women who have joined the army suffer. People who have joined the military some have had to kill people, some have watched friends die in front of them, some feel as if they could have saved someone but they failed. And when people come back from being deployed a lot of times they are different, but they don't know that. Reffering to the lyrics "you say that I'll never change, but what the fuck do you know" this song is NOT about suicide or abusive home life, even watch the music video for this and you will understand that .
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anonymous Mar 24th 2019 report
I will forgive you but this is the last time I do.
anonymous Oct 19th 2018 report
Look, everyone is saying its suicide or due to abuse. What if the mistakes lie with the speaker? What if there is shit that they did? Then they regret what they did so much they essentially excommunicated themselves from their family. Apologizing to parents for screwing up. Apologizing to siblings for kind of leaving them all behind to try to forget, and yet everything still remains in memory.
anonymous Dec 11th 2017 report
Hook told Loudwire that vocalist Ivan Moody's poignant lyrics, "talks about his upbringing and his childhood." song facts
anonymous Dec 11th 2017 report
I believe this song is about a suicide note because it clearly states in the song that in his father's eyes he never added up, and in his mother's eyes you wasn't good enough. He even apologizes to his brother and sister. He feels terrible about how he has ruined his family's life because he couldn't be exactly what his parents wanted him to be. So he decides to end his life.
anonymous May 23rd 2017 report
To me, the song hits a very personal nerve. As someone who grew up in a violent & unstable home, I feel a strong connection to "not being good enough" for your parents. My siblings & I all had to find our own way to get through the situation & honestly I haven't seen my brother or baby sister in 5 years & they haven't seen each other in 10. I love them both but we have trouble meshing as a tradition family. My sister was just a little girl the last time I saw her so I apologize 1000 times a day in my mind for nor being able to do more for her.
I know that is not what the intended meaning is. But this song fits perfectly into my dysfunctional life.
anonymous Mar 14th 2016 report
I think the song is about a suicide note, the opening lines being the start to the letter "Oh, dear mother, I love you
I'm sorry, I wasn't good enough
Dear father, forgive me
'Cause in your eyes, I just never added up
In my heart I know I failed you, but you left me here alone" This is how you would start a letter, then it goes onto the chorus "If I could hold back the rain, would you numb the pain?" the word "rain" being a metaphor for tears, and the pain is the pain the person went through in life. Then it goes to talk about his siblings "Oh, dear brother, just don't hate me For never standing by you or being by your side, Dear sister, please don't blame me, I only did what I thought was truly right
It's a long and lonely road, when you know you walk alone" He wants his whole family to know why he did what he did "I only did what I thought was truly right" He then talks about being alone for the rest of his life and no-one to be with "It's a long and lonely road, when you know you walk alone" and thus believes living is worthless and ends it.
anonymous Jan 11th 2016 report
Exact Meaning Behind the song.
You know the armed forces. Their family leaves them.
The object was a person who was never cared by his parents and he never stood for his brother and never supported his sister and grown up. He join army. His family now hates him too much.
Now he marry a girl because he was tired of being alone. Then still he is alone because his had fight with his wife.
When he was going back to the armed forces that is for long time his wife come and hug him.
Then in the song he says i can't explain what you think. And you say i will never change but you in fact don't know anything what i bared.
There are more explanation but can't write more.
I just wrote in a short and clear way.
I talked to Mike Greening which is Ivans adoptive father, and he told me that this song is about his drug days. When he says "Dear father, I'm sorry I wasn't good enough, because in your eyes, I wasn't good enough, I just never added up" meaning he did not mean to be who he was, it was the drugs that made him what he was. Each forgiveness that he begged is literally what he meant for each family member.
anonymous Oct 16th 2013 report
Dude, these guys put so nuch hard work and amazing lyrics into there songs, I fuckin love this band eith a passion and Ivan and the whole band has gone yhroigh so much shit, I hate howedia portays that they party and everything but I strongly, 100% believe that they don't, yeah they might drink a little but its not excessive, they look past all the bullshit and just live a normal life like everyone else
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