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Evanescence: My Immortal Meaning

Song Released: 2003


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My Immortal Lyrics

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is...

  1. Saxonmike
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    Jan 26th 2011 report

    What I am about to write won't be real popular and I actually agree with the other interpretations over my own as to the meaning of the lyrics that the author wrote and intended to mean. When I heard this song for the first time I was living deep in my own sin and running from God to fulfill those sins. To me this song is a prayer of me talking to God and Him talking to me.

    (Me crying to God,)
    "I'm so tired of being here
    Suppressed by all my childish fears
    And if you have to leave
    I wish that you would just leave
    'Cause your presence still lingers here
    And it won't leave me alone"

    I'm so tired of being miserable in my own sin that I keep chasing that keeps leaving me empty and broken over and over and back in the same place of shame,
    Suppressed by my childish fear and running from Jesus like a child who won't come clean to his parents in fear of punishment.
    And if you have to leave me I would understand and if you have to I wish you would just get it over with,
    Cause your presence still lingers here and I know what is right yet I choose wrong and the guilt and shame I feel just wont leave me alone.

    "These wounds won't seem to heal
    This pain is just too real
    There's just too much that time cannot erase"

    These wounds that I have tried to fix myself and make go away with anything and everything won't seem to heal,
    This pain is just too real, though I look ok on the outside, inside it is almost unbearable,
    There's just too much that time cannot erase; things that I have done that no matter how much time goes by I am ashamed to my core.

    (God crying to me)
    When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
    When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
    And I held your hand through all of these years
    But you still have
    All of me


    (Me crying to God)

    You used to captivate me
    By your resonating light
    Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
    Your face it haunts
    My once pleasant dreams
    Your voice it chased away
    All the sanity in me

    You used to captivate me by your resonating light. This was a time when I was so overjoyed to serve Christ and he filled my heart and life with more blessing than I ever asked and a loving fire that seemed to light my soul.
    Now I'm bound by the life you left behind. Me wondering if I'm left to live the rest of this life in this condition as if he has left me and went to the future patiently waiting for me on my day of death to judge me.
    Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams. The Lord I love and was full of joy at the thought of seeing Him at one time has now become fear of seeing Him.
    Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me......obvious with my interpretation of this song.

    (me crying to God)
    I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
    But though you're still with me
    I've been alone all along

    To me this song is very personal and speaks to me in that way. I know it was never meant like that but to me will always be for that particular time in my life. God bless

  2. anonymous
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    Jan 5th 2011 report

    This song has several meanings depending on where you are in your life. For me, it was a song that made me cry all the way home from work. My son died of a Drug Overdose and through the years I did wipe away all of his tears and he does still have "all of me",

  3. anonymous
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    Dec 30th 2010 report

    i think it's about a relationship with God.

  4. anonymous
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    Dec 14th 2010 report

    I heard its about her 5 year old whom she lost to a horrible disease. Not quite sure if that's true. But after hearing that the song is def deep.

  5. anonymous
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    Dec 12th 2010 report

    I mean.. if this was not written by Amy Lee, it's just about a relationship.
    and probably Amy liked it, because it reminded her of her sister. I dont think this could have written for that kind of lost, like the death of someone you love. I think that if that was the case, this lyrics would be darker.

  6. steffey1991
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    Oct 2nd 2010 report

    I love this song I have often writen the lyrics out to get me through my bad days.
    To me its about being in a really bad relationship that you know you should leave but cant or dont. Its about giving until it hurts and giving again. I have cried as I listen and think "what else do I have to do for you"?
    from the beginning "childish fears" the thought of being alone keeps me in a loveless relationship. And my favorite "though your still with me Ive been alone all along" have you ever laid next to someone and felt as though no one was there? this song describes my co-dependent 19 year relationship,songs come and go but this one is one that stays in my top 10 all time favorites.

  7. ashwindham11
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    Sep 29th 2010 report

    Firstly, the song is not about death. It is clear when she states that if you want to leave than just leave,meaning if you don't want to be with me than take all of you I don't want the memories nor the thoughts of you.

    heres a breakdown of each verse



    I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
    And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
    Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone


    shes tired of feeling hopeless and miserable. Her childish fears do not mean childish as in when she is a child it means she is afraid of change and what the future may bring which is a child state of mind. She is stuck in what was, rather than what is.

    These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
    There's just too much that time cannot erase

    time doesn't heal everything. The time and love she had and spent with him cannot be erased

    When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
    When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
    And I held your hand through all of these years
    But you still have all of me

    she is basically resenting everything because she feels she did everything for this person she loved and he didn't appreciate or he just didn't acknowledge all theyve been through and everything that she did before he left.

    You used to captivate me by your resonating light
    Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
    Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
    Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

    shes saying that she loved everything about him and loved seeing his face but now she wants his face and the memories of him to stop haunting her..his memories are driving her insane

    These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
    There's just too much that time cannot erase

    time doesn't heal everything...her wounds and the time she spent are just too deep

    When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
    When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
    And I held your hand through all of these years
    But you still have all of me
    x2

    I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
    But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

    she tried to tell herself that he's not coming back to heal but it doesn't work...his memories are still with her but his heart is not thus the alone part

    When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
    When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
    And I held your hand through all of these years
    But you still have all of me, me, me


    even though they are not together her heart is still in love with him and she can't move on

  8. Roach
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    Sep 15th 2010 report

    I think this song is about a dead person that was near to the protagonist. She doesn't want to believe that person is gone forever and so she imagines that he/she would still be with her, or maybe he/she is actually still with her as a ghost.
    She wants to forget, but the memories are too beautiful to let them go.

  9. anonymous
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    Aug 26th 2010 report

    I think by now we really know what the song is about, but I wonder if anyone's ever thought about this: What if the song is about Mary, the mother of Jesus, looking up at him on the cross and remembering him as a child. The pure love coming from the most giving mother in the world watching him slowly die on the cross for the rest of us. Don't mean to get all religious, but that's MY interpretation...

    This interpretation has been marked as poor. view anyway
  10. cityflavah
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    Aug 25th 2010 report

    I also jus read the idea that maybe the song is about amy herself. That is also a wonderful idea and makes a lot of sense. There are many good ideas about this song. I think thats why i love evanescence so much cuz most of her songs many can relate to one way or another.

  11. cityflavah
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    Aug 25th 2010 report

    I dont see how this song can be written to her at all. I can see maybe if she moved away but theres still the line "and though ur still with me" that breaks the whole theory. I always thought this had to do with someone you love passing away. But I absolutely love love love the idea of an abusive parent or mentally ill parent especially sense that would be the level i can relate most on.

  12. anonymous
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    Aug 22nd 2010 report

    Okay, Ben Moody wrote this song for Amy Lee, i dont know if he did it after the divorce... Because if it did, you'll notice that it sounds better if a GUY is singing it to the GIRL, like if he's APOLOGISING... no seriously think of it, If you have to "LEAVE" i wish if you would just leave, i dont know if i typed that right, JUST THINK OF IT!

  13. Kamael
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    Jun 22nd 2010 report

    The first time I've heard this song, was during a video on abortion. Therefore I think it could relate to a majority of different factors in life. For example, death of a loved one, abortion etc.

  14. anonymous
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    May 15th 2010 report

    I think she is singing his thoughts. She Killed herself, he is the one who is thinking all of the words she is singing. She, from the other side, is seeing the devastation she left behind. Such an amazing song, whatever your interpretation of it may be!

  15. anonymous
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    May 9th 2010 report

    Amy (the song writer/singer)'s son passed away from some type of disease and of course it would hurt any mother and that's what this song is about and I've herd from many people. (when you cried id wipe away all of your tears, when you screamed id fight away all of your tears, I held your hand through all of these years)my mother used to do that all the time and she still does, she guides me through the important things that I couldn't do alone and always says "what what I do if you weren't here for me to support you" it really hurts a mother or father or anyone who parented a child and for there son or daughter to die and have a drastic change like that would hurt extremely bad I couldn't even imagine and that's what she's saying the pain just gets worse and worse because everyday you think of all the memories and all of the things that child has left behind and it scars your heart more and more each time you think about them or see something from them, the pain keeps worsening.




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