Evanescence: October Meaning
Here I am, I have nothing left.
Though I've tried to forget, you're all that I am.
Take me home, I'm through fighting it.
I give up, you're my only strength.
Without you, I can't go...
immortalnight Oct 11th, 2006 10:35pm report
I may be wrong so feel free to correct me.
I see this song about someone (let's say a girl) who has apparently been through some horrible situations with past relationships and has been left hurting and untrusting. Then, along comes this other person who is caring and understanding and is truly the "perfect" person for her to be with. Sadly, she doesn't trust anyone anymore because of the hurtful relationship, and tries to deny the fact that this person will be the one that will help her heal.
In the song, she is realizing that this person is her "only strength" and she "can't go on anymore" without him.
I love this song and Amy's voice is absolutely beautiful!
anonymous Jun 15th, 2010 6:17am report
How could it not be about God?
anonymous Feb 22nd, 2:38pm report
First off I would like to address the issue of they being a Christian band. Ms. Lee herself has said that they are NOT a Christian band. However, she started her " band" and wrighting music at Christian School/camp with, Moody, at age 13 and 14. So draw your own conclusion
And yes she lost a younger sister which is still VERY painful for her, duh, anyway the song "Swimming Home" is for her sister.ouch!
anonymous Aug 7th, 2017 8:42am report
This song is NOT about a guy. And, though I have not been able to figure out the title yet, a lot of Evanescence songs are named a title that is barely sung in the lyrics. For example: in the song "Whisper," the word 'whisper' is only said once and in the song "Understanding," the words 'understand' or 'understanding' or 'understood' are NEVER referenced. This is the same in "My Immortal" and "So Close" as well as many more. Amy hardly names her songs after what is actually spoken in them, but what she was thinking/feeling/explaining at the time of writing. Perhaps she wrote this song in "October" and she didn't want the title to make sense. OR I have another theory that this song IS about her deceased sister (named Bonnie) and poor little Bonnie died in the month of October, so when Amy wrote the song, she named it after the anniversary month of her death. Yes, Amy DID have a sister who passed away. The reasons you will not find much about Bonnie is because she died when she was only 3 years old.
anonymous Jan 26th, 2017 1:54pm report
Can I ask why this song is called October? Anybody know? Just curious since it's nowhere in the dong and usually the title is in the song somewhere? Thanks!!!
anonymous Dec 1st, 2012 12:09pm report
I agree with it sounding like a love song but i herd it was about a younger sister who died....i tryed looking this up to see if she did have I
one that died and ive only found her to have one sister and shes still alive as far as i know. There was video on youtube where she talkd about amy during highschool so idk but i highly doubt its religious. Music is an outlet for her and she uses it to express feelings that would otherwise kill her. Seriously if you look af interviews she ses it every time. Religious? I doubt it.
anonymous Nov 15th, 2011 11:04pm report
Well, I think the song is about a person, amy in this case, who are being abused by a loved wrong, who you can't stop loving anyways.. Referring to the sentence *I'll not close my eyes, I'm too alive and you're too strong.* and *I can't hide anymore, I fall before you.*.. Well maybe I'm wrong.. But loving someone, and them being abusive is a guess? You love them him and you'll do anything for the person, but deep inside, the abuse is taking control...
anonymous Jul 18th, 2011 7:32pm report
I don't want to copy what everyone else has said, but when I first heard it, especially the "I fall into your abounding grace," I sort of felt like it seemed religious. And, I have noticed that a lot of her songs tend to lean towards a common theme. She's hurt from past relationships, from past failures, from past losses, and she buries herself in her pain. Or at times she feels that's all she deserves is pain or it's stupid to be happy. Then, at some point in her song, she realizes, "Wait, I deserve something better" or "Wait, I am happy" and she moves on. This song seems no different. She's lost in layers of pain, but this time, she's looking for a higher power to pull her back out--whether it be a god or God or perhaps an angelic force in her life (or an angelic person in her life.) But, from the chorus, it seems very spiritual--the journey of her becoming, well, her. She's run away from it and come back, but there is this higher force that has been there for her all along.
Sorry, if I'm sort of babbling. I'm just sort of mulling over the lyrics in my head as I go along.
anonymous Jun 20th, 2011 6:58pm report
why is it called october?
anonymous May 9th, 2011 5:27am report
this song has to do a lot with spirituality than a mere relationship that hasn't turned out well. I agree that that fact is quite obvious. This song is about God, definitely not about some lost lover.
anonymous Apr 19th, 2011 4:20pm report
I would love it if this song was a Christian song, but sadly Evanescence is not a Christian band. So this song is obviously about a girl who's depressed about a guy.
anonymous Mar 22nd, 2011 3:50pm report
I don't think there's one exact interpretation for this song. Maybe during the moment she was writing this song she did have a certain emotion she was feeling whether it be religious or love... Who knows... But us being the listeners we can also interpret it however we see it too. Well that's what makes it art right? it's like looking at an abstract painting, you could be feeling one thing and the person next to you feeling something totally different. Or it could be a certain moment in time it takes you back to. So no one should be saying someone else is wrong because they're not seeing it the same..... I personally see it a little more religious. But that doesn't mean I don't see it being a love song. I imagine someone who is just tired of living their life without meaning. Sick of making excuses and lying to themselves. Then finally that person just breaks down in exhaustion of everything and in a way starts singing the first verse of this song and so on. That person was not only saying sorry to christ for shoving him out and running away but also all they're loved ones that they hurt on the way...but that's just what I imagine.....am I wrong for thinking this?.... No.... Neither is anyone else because it's how you interpret it.
anonymous Dec 20th, 2010 12:38pm report
I do believe the first answer. Its written for Christ. The people around me who are for some reason also BITTER towards Jesus try to say its not a to Jesus song but I agree that its VERY obvious.
anonymous Jul 4th, 2010 7:24pm report
I think that this song is of, lets say a woman who cheated her husband and left him for the other man. Things with this other man didn't work out as she realizes that she didn't love this man and it was only lust. She tries for so long to try and make that work but now she leaves him. She tries to live on with her life but she can't stop thinking of her ex-husband. Now she's returning to her ex, begging for forgiveness and saying how sorry she is that she cheated on him. She realizes now that he is what she leans on him, he's who she gets her strength from, that her ex-husband was her everything. She tells him she'll never stray again, and eventually he takes her back.
anonymous Jun 19th, 2010 6:32pm report
I think it's about how someone finds another very attractive and loves him/her very much, but the other person tries to ignore them. One day, when that person had enough of being ignored, having lost all energy and faith to move on, they go back to the person who may be their true love, and apologizes for being so ignorant.
anonymous Dec 12th, 2009 12:44pm report
I think it could definitely be interpreted in more than one way. The song is obviously a love song. But there's no reason it can't be written in religious terms. They're allowed to have more than 2 spiritual songs, you know? ;] Heck, it could be both.
anonymous Sep 4th, 2009 9:56pm report
I would have to aggree with Immortalnight. She says that she can't lie anymore and she falls down before him which could mean she's tired of lying to herself that he's not the one to make it better. She says she's so sorry for being so bitter to him.
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