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Evanescence: My Immortal Meaning

Song Released: 2003

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My Immortal Lyrics

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is...

  1. anonymous
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    Oct 29th 2011 report

    This song sounds like the aftermath of being in a relationship with someone who has Borderline Personality Disorder. It's almost textbook in its description of the emotional wreckage a Borderline can cause.

    The emotional pain in the song is obviously far too specific to be about a run-of-the-mill 'broken relationship.' It also can't simply be about unrequited love. The actions described, such as SPLITING and DISSOCIATION, are extremely indicative of BPD.

    Borderlines can be very 'captivating' as well, and are known to be seducers. Borderlines seduce by 'mirroring' what they think is best in us, because they have no real sense of self. They also idealize us, i.e. put us on pedestals. These actions serve to draw us in to toxic attachments to a person that, essentially, has no capacity for real intimacy.

    What is most indicitave is the 'Push/Pull" imagery in the song. "If you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave." Borderlines are simultaneously terrified of abandonment and intimacy. Hence, they act in an "I hate you/don't leave me' fasion. Over time, this push/pull dynamic leaves the non-borderline emotionally exhausted, and the Borderline's greatest fear, ABANDONMENT, is achieved.

    What usually happens is that the Borderline continues on in his/her mental illness with no real insight, while the non-borderline is left confused and devastated. Borderlines are very good (unconsciously) at attaching themselves to the 'wounded' or 'inner-child' aspects of people. Once these unheatlhy attachments are formed, they are VERY hard to break.

    On another note: I wouldn't be surprised if Amy lee is somewhat mood disordered herself and Ben Moody wrote this song as an emotional interpretation of his relationship (or lack thereof) with her. I've always had a feeling about Amy . . .

  2. anonymous
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    Oct 27th 2011 report

    I think this is reflecting upon the pain someone feels when they lose a loved one. Even though this person tries to push these persistent, painful memories away,they can't seem to do so considering how much they cared about that being. Some will eventually think of this as of how they would feel being in that state of emotion, tormenting them endlessly. Anyone who has felt this way may understand how this song reflects their thoughts of that type of situation.

  3. anonymous
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    Sep 22nd 2011 report

    mine is that maybe its about domestic violence because When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears(after he hit her and had a break down
    When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears(when he thought she was cheating on her and he screamed at her
    And I held your hand through all of these years(she was with him his whole life even through the bad years)
    But you still have All of me(meaning he wouldn't let her have a life or when he left he took her whole life with him)
    You used to captivate me(when they met he was really nice and interesting)
    By your resonating light
    Now I'm bound by the life you left behind(she is trying to see that same guy in him)
    Your face it haunts(he haunts her dreams as a result of domestic violence)
    My once pleasant dreams
    Your voice it chased away
    All the sanity in me(her family|friends told her to leave him but she got to wrapped in him)

    These wounds won't seem to heal(the wounds of being abused both physically and mentally
    This pain is just too real
    There's just too much that time cannot erase
    I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone(that he wont come back and hurt her any more)
    But though you're still with me
    I've been alone all along(she never really had him even though he was there

  4. anonymous
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    Sep 20th 2011 report

    my dad passed away 3 years ago in march i picked this song to be played at his funeral because it simply told how i felt about him having to leave.i was there thru all his pain and suffering and now im still haunting by the memmories of his dying. my dreams of him are now haunted by reliving his death over and over again.i was holding his hand when he took his last breath and i still cant face the fact he is gone, but he still does have my heart and he will always be with me. he is now my angel.

  5. Patrick Galloway
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    Sep 13th 2011 report

    this song is about our savior and how we have tried to undo what we did to be here we have found no forgiveness for what we have done.hence we are here all alone but our savior lingers on even tho he isn't here,he lingers on only because we still love him.the title MY IMMORTAL tells you who she is singing about.

  6. anonymous
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    Sep 7th 2011 report

    i think the person that wrote this song was still in love with the person even though she got hunt her love was to strong to just leave he and now he gone she is hurting even more

  7. TTiger
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    Aug 20th 2011 report

    View the video of MY IMMORTAL after reading my interpretation for a mindblower. A detached Amy Lee with children playing around her and a bird symbolizing the spirit of her unborn child fluttering above and around her.

  8. TTiger
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    Aug 20th 2011 report

    Told from the perspective of a tortured and strife ridden would-be father, MY IMMORTAL tells the powerful and sorrowful story of the emotional devastation and fallout caused the mother's decision to abort their unborn child (the "life...left behind").

    The story begins (verse 1) with the grief-striken writer paralyzed emotionally by his situation (post abortion) telling his misguided lover to just leave if she must because of the unyielding torment she has caused by her actions.

    The emotional wounds of her betrayal (bridge 1) cannot be healed. The writer is emotionally split in two between the love of his soulmate and her decision to abort their child. Though it is said time heals all wounds, time cannot remedy this situation (time cannot undo his lover's choice, nor ever erase the immortal spirit of his dead child). This will truly stay with him (and her) for eternity.

    The chorus depicts the writer comforting and supporting his pregnant lover crying and screaming in her own hell facing a fateful decision regarding the life of their unborn child. One senses he is pleading with her after the fact "why did you do this after I gave you my all in love and support". He literally gave "All of me" to her to create their child.

    In the second verse the writer recalls his perception of his lover before her dark (in his view) decision: "resonating light" symbolizes the purity, holiness, goodness, and godliness he saw, releted to, and respected in her. "Now" (after her fateful act) the writer is "bound" by "the life [she] left behind". The "life left behind" is a cleverly veiled reference to abortion. The writer is bound emotionally in that he will never be able to see his lover the same way again.
    Her face haunts the dream she has destroyed of their having a loving family together and all the life and beauty that encompasses.

    Her "voice" that informed him of her decision and that tried to reason with him about the decision has left him hollow, confused, and undeniably broken.

    The original language of the final bridge(as I understand) was changed and rewritten by Amy Lee. This final bridge can be interpreted as the mother's" haunting cry to her lost child, who is gone in body, and in a sense with her in spirit. Nonetheless, she is alone with respect to her child and her decision. Additionally, or alternatively this language could be directed to her lover who is still with her (at the time this was written), but gone or gutted emotionally, leaving her alone.

    The title of this song, MY IMMORTAL, is simply the writer's reference to the immortal spirit of his deceased unborn child. "My" as this is his own child; "immortal" as in he will be with this child one fine day.

    Powerful songs usually come from a reality equally as charged. No disrespect to anyone who personalized this song otherwise. Peace, love, and happiness.

  9. anonymous
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    Aug 16th 2011 report

    This is Ben Moody's song - Amy Lee's contribution was the one couplet in the bridge ("I tried so hard to tell myself...") and, with David Hodges, the piano figure. Ben based it on a short story of his, and dedicated it to his Grandfather. So any interpretation that involves Amy's younger sister is wrong.

    If you need an example of Amy Lee's genius, try Breathe No More instead: astonishing.

  10. anonymous
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    Aug 8th 2011 report

    I believe it could either be about a failed relationship or about the loss of someone who died and the narrator is so wracked w grief that she cannot move on. It could be that the person is stuck in one of the stages of grief. That this person is insane w sadness and is haunted by memories.

  11. anonymous
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    Jul 30th 2011 report

    And If ...???
    She just speaks about too part of """herself""
    - Like child inside and adult inside
    - Or Mind and Soul
    I come here following a video link on facebook (looking for what does that mean ... happy to find you site !!!) BUT HAS IN MY WAY OF SEEING "LIFE" THERE ARE NO HASARDS ...... I can not imagine comming here right now is not in link with the book I'm just reading : ""practice .. the power of now companion"" (part 2)
    speaking about our ownsel"ves" ...
    If that's can be the meaning ... It could have become more hope full along the message

    Love and Light
    Valptisoleil France

  12. Katherine Flinn
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    Jul 14th 2011 report

    I see this song, really, as not just a song about someone you loved haunting you after they die but, in addition, kind of figuring out how you feel about this and their death in general. One example, I think is
    "I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
    But though you're still with me
    I've been alone all along"
    It's as if she's trying to be angry at the person and say that they never cared at all just so that she won't miss them as much...

  13. skyscreamer
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    Jun 4th 2011 report

    yes as all the discussions go ,the songs refers to her lost lover with whom she didnt have a happy life with,but i think its not because he cheated her but perhaps because of the way he has changed,like
    in the lyrics its said that-

    "I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
    But though you're still with me
    I've been alone all along"

    which reveals the idea that he has changed a lot,she cannot see the one whom she had fallen in love with,he's gone,she is alone now..but his physical self is beside her,so she tries hard to convince her mind that its the same 'him' who she had loved.

  14. anonymous
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    May 31st 2011 report

    this song describes a loved one mainly the husband or sister who passed away the chorus fits it perfectly, 'when you cried i wiped away all of your tears, when you screamed i fought away all of your fears, and i held your hand through all of these years but you still have all of me.' and light in this song is the loved one. anyone who has lost a loved one should listen to this song. and the part in the bridge 'i've been alone all along.' means even in life without her husband or sister she's been alone the whole time. the song describes the pain one goes through when someone you love passes on.

  15. anonymous
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    May 31st 2011 report

    I know the meaning of these lyrics all to well. Well at least I think I do. I think she is talking about a mate that she is committed to, but that is never around. She gives everything she has for that person and is always around, but they are never there for her. The feelings she describes in this song is exactly how it feels. And I think that they are still together through the whole song. I don't see him actually leaving. Just her having to continue on in the emptiness of the relationship. It's an awful feeling. Trust me she or whoever the author is totally nailed it.

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